I went back--and nothing changed. I knew what was to come...

[But it made little difference. Was it because he forgot, or because no matter what he did it was meant to end the way it did? He couldn't be sure. Not for now.]

...they deserve better than what I can give. But since I am available and perhaps not any better--I will give what I can. Do what I can.

[A slight pause.]

Thank you.