Exactly. It is all rather useless.

And why even bother trying not to die? You'll just be brought back. It takes away the pure meaning of life. It makes existence completely pointless. There is no meaning to life, no reason to live.

Before, I had a purpose. Something to sustain me through hard times and not take for granted the times of peace. That has been taken away from me--replaced by little more than the pretense of going through the old motions as if they mean anything anymore.

It is beyond cruel. It is unnatural.