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[betrayedblade]

...perhaps I miss the old routine a bit much. This new one, while nice and cozy, makes only for a decent vacation. Yes, even despite the odd happenstances here and there. It is too...boring.

[He pauses. He's complaining. And he realizes he's turned the communicator without much thinking about it. He was past due for an update anyway, before he discovered for himself just what sort of energy the device packed, and had been thinking about it before he started in on the complaints of this place. Ah well.]

Boring. Listen to me--complaining like some sort of youngster who has nothing better than to get into trouble every day. I converse much too often with giovani here and start to reminiscence on my old lifestyle as if I could get away with what I used to.

[He sighs.] I am getting old. When you start saying 'I'm getting too old for this' it is well past time you are too old for...things.

...Ugh. Now I'm using circular arguments and boring unto death those silly enough to listen to these devices.

[...]

Though I can't help but to miss the action back home. Not just the routine... but the purpose. What purpose is there here?

Comments

[princelyrose.livejournal.com]

Maybe this is a test of our resolve. We can be bored, but we shouldn't give up and just...allow ourselves to die or sit back and do nothing.

[betrayedblade.livejournal.com]

...I am afraid my resolve has been slipping of late, signorina. Mi dispiace.

[princelyrose.livejournal.com]

It happens to everyone...especially when you've been here for a long time. Things probably settle into routine and you almost don't think about how nothing is helping until you actually do think.

It's okay. You're not at fault, you know.

[betrayedblade.livejournal.com]

Yes... yes.

Can I blame my own failings on another? That hardly seems fair.

[princelyrose.livejournal.com]

I don't think you're blaming anyone, just reminding yourself about it. And it looks like a lot of people agree with you.

[betrayedblade.livejournal.com]

...I'm not sure anyone is really agreeing with me, Utena. Quite the opposite; they are more than happy to tell me to quit complaining like a child.

Basically.

[princelyrose.livejournal.com]

You're voicing your- [She sighs, sounding frustrated.]

No one can get along here, can they? It's not like people keep quiet all the time and no one complains, you know.

[betrayedblade.livejournal.com]

I very well know. I also know that just as many people tell the others to zitto!, to be quiet. Everyone has their own way of being tired and put up with this nonsense. I do not need to add to all the frustration.

But I have. And I am beginning to regret it.

[princelyrose.livejournal.com]

People voice their opinions every day. It may hurt or offend someone, but...that's just how it is. I mean, you can apologize for offending them, but it's still your opinion and it's not like anyone can keep you, or others, quiet.

I don't think it's right to keep people quiet when things are wrong.

[betrayedblade.livejournal.com]

That does not mean they need to be public.

I'm not saying that. But here it does no good. I cannot fix this as I could fix political or social unrest back home. It's not the same.